Hello Goodbye

I just suddenly got the urge to blog again. So hi.

I've removed all my previous posts (except for the nus modules review post) because I want to start anew. Well, start the blog anew, and start my life anew.

Life's pretty much the same. The long holiday was awesome, but at the end of it we all have to face the reality and get back to school. In a blink of an eye, here we are, at week 12. I say life is pretty much the same because it's just going to school, rushing through homework, attending lectures and tutorials, ponning lessons, taking tests, going home. My core modules are giving me a hard time, but of course I have to blame it on my procrastination and lack of self discipline in mugging for it. Even so, I am kind of glad I had a mini breakdown due to my stress over studies, because it taught me to have a little more faith in people around me, that they do care.

Yes, there are people who care for me, and will be by myself for a long long time. But that does not apply to every one. They may care for you, but they are not gonna stay with you forever. They will move on one day. That day might come in years, months, days, hours, or even seconds. At the moment I understood this, I told myself, maybe it's time. It's time, for me, to forget. To move on. Just like how he did, so easily.

I have to move on. I trapped myself in an empty hole for months, and all I see around me was darkness. Sometimes, I let some light in. Sometimes, I tried to climb out of that hole. I have to escape form that hole, or else I will never remember how to breathe. I will stay being suffocated. And that's not what I want to be. I want to be in the bright light. Or at least together with someone in the dark. And I guess I'm slowly getting there. I'm slowly getting out of that deep, dark hole.

Hmmm, okay that last few paragraphs are kinda emotional and dark lol. But you get the gist. And also, thank you friends, if you're reading this (which I don't think you guys will HAHA). Thank you for listening to my never ending problems, giving me advices, lending me a shoulder to lean on, drying my tears,.. I will probably be in much more pain if I was really all alone. :')

Someone asked me why so many of my facebook posts were sad and depressing. I told that person I am emotional, and I would like to think that I am positively emotional :')

I guess I will stop here for now. Need to get back to my work! Can't wait for holidays to come. Week 13 is going to be horrendous with 1 report, 1 presentation, 1 oral, 2 language finals.

Wish me luck! :-)